2007:
good:

- graduating
- WAC
- Soap Factory
- making some $$
- ooh, it, feels good to be free
- mn summer
- moving to mpls
- lovin' mpls
- pink bike
- love-filled apartment
- home office

	[09 Sep 2007|10:41pm]
I alternate between sobbing and grinning ear to ear. My life is so exciting right now. I can do anything, I think? Or sometimes nothing, nothing at all, what was I thinking? I worry, then I want to draw and paint in colors. What what what? I should have known, with a boy like you, your middle name is "always." So that's fine.

duh

Computers are for desks!

There are things I'm trying to work out. Aren't there always things? But, it's like in the last month I see myself from the outside. I am analyzing without meaning to - I see why I felt the way I did about people, my actions, my feelings. It is overwhelming - all this insight that is building up in my chest. While I am generally ridiculously content with my life right now, I cannot help but want to tidy things up, fix them, but I've also learned that if I fret too much, if I take action instead of stirring things around first, tasting them, it just gets a lot messier.

I should be banned from ALL instant-gratification communicative technology.

It's time to live on paper.

iLike

i really like
large text
and
any artist
who uses large text
as art

I NEED TO GET STAMPS
ALSO A BUS CARD
PRESENTS FOR FAMILY

ahem

I quit my lame retail job after a month of work rather rashly last Friday. I hope this doesn't come back to haunt me. It shouldn't. But two days later I am worrying. Not only about personal repercussions but also feeling bad about up and leaving a place where a majority of the employees and the manager were pleasant and friendly. Somebody once told me that I always 'searched' for things to stress me out. That has haunted me since the day it happened. I think about it too much. But that's another thing I stress about - I'm just an unrelenting worrier in a viscous cycle. I want to get rid of that. I don't know what will. This is too personal for this blog. I don't owe anybody anything. I don't owe anybody anything.

In: Ambassador Squiggles
5 Min. Ago: Squeaky & Donut
Out: Prickley Pete

DISNEYLANDDDDDDDD

Oh my god. The Walker did this amazing show 10 years ago. I'm scouring these archives later.

all i wanted to hear was chopin's 'nocturne in e flat' and it's good.

it's real good.

i want to play those trills all night long.

london/design/linky

There is this need in me right now to possess something beautiful. Hold it in me. This happens from time to time, but right now everything that is aesthetically appealing to me makes me want to cry just a little bit - just like any mention of London.

London: everything is hipper there. Underground safety and the new Museum of Childhood near Bethnal Green and a lovely little park I read the new Nick Hornby book in. Plus, there's a reason Erin bought me the London Underground art book. Check out the government transportation page about all their art projects. It's incredible. I remember when they had those beautiful David Batchelor lights up. AGHGHGH. There is no city that incorporates 'art' in every sense of the world as naturally and seamlessly as London.

disappointing

SimCity Societies: NO.
The Sims 2 Castaway: NO.

Everything is getting so dumbed down these days.

On another note: I want a computer dedicated solely to gaming/my Sims/Rollercoaster Tycoon.

detour

@ the library:

As I am wandering down the aisles, shelving books, I keep remembering things that I'm interested in and want to read more about. Feng shui, Chinese history, tree houses, design, Disney animation, Bill Bryson, musicals, Chopin.

There is so much stuff to learn. So much to fill myself with and it makes me feel generally good about life, the world, me.

Yesterday I listened to 'Jesus Christ Superstar' while shelving. I think I sang along. I checked out 'Aspects of Love' and have been singing along in the car. Today I feel like writing the whole libretto out. I could write out the whole libretto for 'Les Mis' too. Also 'Phantom'. I'm a big nerd about Andrew Lloyd Webber. I know a lot about music, operas, composers. It's stuff I don't use anymore but it is good to remember every now and then that I know a thing or two about a thing or two.